Good evening all,
I am currently sitting in my garden listening to midnight train to georgia and suprisingly happy. I didnt write last night because i was in a no energy grump and now i have come to write about last night i cant express properly what i was feeling ...... anyway here goes.
Monday 28th July 2008
Mondays are never a good day particularly but i felt suprisingly ok. Normally Martin would drive me to work but since he has had a recent passion for work (and i hope that is all it is) he has been leaving early so i was suppose to walk to work but i ended up getting a taxi (naughty naught) i did blame this on the fact work would possibly be to hot so i had to take a fan!
I knew work wouldnt be to much of a hasstle as the boss always eats healthyly so there was no chance of smells tempting me, infact he is a bit of a salad addict as far as im concerned and he is always suportive in his funny little ways!
Upstairs in the office we have another company there, i wasnt intending on mentioning it to them but ended up having to because my blender is so bloody noisy.
Everything was going well untill one of my contractors who shall remian nameless wrang my boss to say he was coming in and got him to ask me if i wanted a bucket of KFC knows damn well what i was upto. This didnt bother me and i ended up asking my boss if he would really do that? The boss replied that he didnt think he would be that cruel!
So the contractor turns up, i see him walking into the car park KFC bucket free i was relived but then in he comes and goes over to my boss and gives him a chicken sarnie from gregs then comes over to me and gives me a bottle of diet coke and a cheese sandwich (im getting hungry even thinking about it. I was furious but politely told him that i was very thankfull but unfortunately i couldnt except either he told me that it would be fine and that id sweat it out due to the heat,he then told me that he would have half and no one would have to know and explained why what i am doing is dangerous, well if he is that much of a fucking nutrionist why the hell is he so big ? anyway arguing didnt get me any where so he left the sandwich on my desk staring me in the face and as soon as he left i had a big bitch and put it in the fride HOW FUCKING UNSUPPORTIVE ...... DICK!
End of the day arrived and i was so full with water, when martin turned up he was in a stress and got me in a right fluster this is not what i needed at the time so i turned into "i want to shout at everyone loulou" then mum turned up i belive this is called saved my the bell ? I had to take my dog to the vets to get his nails cut, i think he must of picked up on my anger as he was playing up slightly when we got there we realised martin had booked us in with the wrong vet (my dog is a rescue rotwiller and is very particular of who he likes and who doesnt)I knew he wouldnt like this vet as she is not even very good with communicating with humans anyway the dog got muzzled and started bucking and the vet in turn cut his nail to short and the blood started pouring AAAAHHH i wanted to kill everyone in my path.
Had to stop off on the way home to a client for a mini meeting but this was quite calming so didnt mind, when i got home all i wanted was to go to tesco to get nail polish for my "mee time box" but unfortunately due to the fact people like to "play pikey" they lock the cosmetics away. Ny this time i was acting like a spoilt child and thought i should just go home, have my chicken soup and try and make buscuits out of mikshake (what a stupid mentall retarded idea not suprised it didnt work out)After the busciut insident it was time for bed i was knackered.
Tuesday 29th July 2008
Today taxi again whoops !! the excuse today was i had ice cubes in my bag ?
anyway the day went really well apart from contractor ringing up to ask if i wanted some chips! the boss ended up eating the cheese sarnie i left in the fridge. I figured out today that if i water down the shakes more then it is not so hard to eat !! good work i thought there is hope for me yet!
Day finished at work and came home to get ready for the "drop in session" with the lighterlife crew. Everyone there seemed to be a lot more chatty and a lot more supportive which was nice.When we arrived we had to go tothe toilet to wee on a ph stick this would tell is if we are now in ketosis (fat burning mode)mine said i was but dehidrated, apparently when in ketosis this suppresses your appetite...we shall see, anyway we got weighed and i have lost 3 pounds in three days Whoop WHOOp! so i am down to 11stone 13 pounds. We had our photo's taken and our measurement taken (ill put them in tomorrws blog becuase cant be assed to move and get them)we also got given our "bars" today which i have been lookingforward to greatly and i needed to chew on something other than martins ear. I made a nice friend in the group today, she has just moved to the area and lives quite close so we have exchanged numbers so we can meet up, this is good as all my friends live in the next town.
Got home and had my first bar it was a toffee one, it was discusting so only eat half of it and decided i would have half of the peanut bar this was nice and like a tracker bar.
This takes me to now, i am tired and starting to feel sick now so i will sign off for the evening but i would say that i am deffinately in a better state than the first day and am looking forward to the propper weigh in on saturday, anyway night.
